16x20 abstract painting ( not afraid of falling in love )

sweet morning glory… Sweet sounds of trumpets  Pour your sounds on my ground…. Take me to the middle of the sea and drown me in all their fears  tear through me and show my soul  Show everything I poured into this Show the feelings that haunted me in this Show me what it means to be in the rain in the middle of the ocean… When my all has been drained out of me And given to you  No matter how much I try just seems like I can never get through to you Just seems like my timing is never right even when I’m right on time  you get the option to care or not care about me  But I haven’t had that privilege yet  Seems like my only option   Is to keep fighting for something that has let go   To keep holding on to something that isn’t there    To keep holding on to the pieces to make everything whole.  even the ones that hurt the most I pick up and cut my hand trying to hold on to the sharp pieces   I’m no longer a priority in your life and I accepted being just the one you have to see if you can make time for  the rain pours harder on the ocean surface  we were everything together and together everything came together   did I really have a chance at your heart or was it just for a limited time was just enough for you to wait until your fear and pride to decide when you had enough of feeling so insecure about this  why wouldn’t you give us a real try the dolphins sing this lullaby   why am I always the one with the most time why am I the one so occupied with the busyness of making these feelings survive  This song started out as just a melody and then formed its own words and verses  all of hurt has been removed out of me  I’m still kneeling at your feet  Telling you I need you  I want you to be a reason For my life to shine through the clouds  I showed you how vulnerable I can be  was I was ignored by you volcanos would erupt within me and make me melt into the sidelines and just witness something so strong get taking out by what I think is love but I’m not sure if it is  I’m not sure if it’s just a whirlwind in me that needed to come out and needed something to be taken from me so it can come to the surface  I guess it got tired of being suppressed… How many things need to come out of me  How many things need to get taken from me  Like I didn’t already have a permanent address in loneliness… when I find meaning in someone other than me  it just means that maybe it won’t last long… I was playing for keeps  But I got treated like I was just a temporary moment.. The moon cries out for me  But I submerge deeper into the lake of rain drops  I’m pulling myself up and I’m drowning myself at the same time..  I find breath in this  Because I haven’t given up on you  I know why I love you and that’s  The reason why I could breathe